Something I have realized over the years and that is I find the act of eating an inconvenience! I find it interrupts my day and it strangely it annoys me!!
Now don't get me wrong, I know I have to eat to survive. To maintain my place on this spinning ball of wet rock I have to consume food and fluids. Nutrients, fats, proteins, carbs and whole host of other stuff are all vital in making this body move from heartbeat to the next.
But I bothers me that I have to take time out or plan around the act of eating food. I can, and have, gone without food for a whole day based on the fact I just don't want to eat. I also know I'd probably go for much longer without eating but the sensible part of my concious tells me that I have to or hospitals and doctors will have to start getting involved. And that sort of thing really messes up your day.
I know longer register hunger anymore but then again I have never let it reach a stage where it probably hurts. I'm told proper starvation actually hurts.
I have noticed that when I don't eat that I also don't sleep either, which is strange considering the lack of calories I throwing down my throat. I know from various sources that in people who don't eat properly, the body consumes itself. And yes, this bothers me considering there is not much of me in the first place.
But I still can't get out of this stupid loop of "oh no, got to eat again" mentality and this should bother me, but it doesn't. And that should bother me too, but it doesn't!
And the crazy thing, I like to cook. I love planning a meal or something similar.I love taking the time out to prepare and cook something. I love to bake too. But the act of eating just feels like a waste of time to me! I sit down with my creation in front of me and I just feel, meh!!
