Well, last night I got to discover something about me, something I have wanted to do for a very long time and something I have had trouble achieving!
I discovered my little, my inner child that has for years been clawing it's way back to the surface.
Over these years I have had my troubles that I have had to face like a grown up. I live alone so can't fully let go of my grown up self. I need supervision, a grown up to watch over me and let me go crazy. So that if I stumble, they'll pick me up and brush me off and tell me it'll be alright!
And whilst I still don't have that grown up in my life, last night I got to let her out. The little girl that has asked to play for oh so long!
I got to throw myself around a huge adventure playground, I got to drink sugary slushies and eat pots of sweets. I got to colour in and play with play doh. I got to brat and play games with lots of new friends. I felt safe, I felt happy and I felt alive again. I felt like me!!
It almost upsets me to feel like that I have to put her back in the box but I know I have a place now for her to go until I find my grown up.
Thank you everyone last night for helping me out of the box. Sorry about the balls! It just means I likes you. x
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